Stresses of the week

Another week with constant rush of adrenaline am afraid. Will not bore you with every single details. Am waking up with morning headache almost every day, accompanied by blurred vision and poor balance. Am very deprived of sleep at the moment, so will try increase my sleep and see if the symptoms disappear.

Four things which stressed me out this week:

1. CB cake sale
We did it last year but I did not bake anything (I just manned the stall for the whole day). This time, I contributed some baking. Went to two supermarkets to get the necessary ingredients. Slept for two hours and spent the rest of the early morning baking. Headache was awful, I prefer not to do that again. But am so flattered that they sold out!

2. SSC
I planned to do something paediatric related but did not have enough opportunities to sit in the relevant clinic. Felt panic by Tuesday. Now have decided to do medullary thyroid cancer. Kind of glad that my supervisor is not the expert of the experts in this disease. However she is going to ask one of the other consultant who specialises in cancer genetics and had written books on it to read through my essay - very very intimidating.

3. Project option
My supervisor is lovely, but she is not very good at replying email. I emailed her since last month to remind her that the deadline for title submission will be next Monday, to which I received no reply. Understandably I was getting extremely anxious, risking failing the component and having to repeat fourth year when the project option hasn't even started (not until May 2009), as the guideline clearly states 'student's responsibility: to register a project option title by 15th December 08'. Fortunately this time I guess she gathered the sense of urgency and replied me straight away. So now it's sorted. Relief!

4. Chorus
The concerts are this weekend! I'm so excited! Will be performing at the front row as there were no seat left at the rows behind by the time I arrived for rehearsal on Thursday. Stressed because am not very confident with the sitting and standing, as well as some singing, especially the beginning of a new chorus without having some singers in front of me to ensure that I am indeed doing the right thing. Our conductor always say make mistake confidently, and I've always done so without feeling too embarrassed. But I can't do that in a concert. Imagine, suddenly standing up at a wrong time with everyone else still sitting and having the audience wonder what is my problem... Nevertheless, really looking forward to it. It felt amazing singing with a full orchestra, in the magnificent whitworth hall.


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