I'm now trapped in a viscous cycle of self apathy. Nothing in life interests me - Unmotivated - Uninterested - Stays at home - Eat - Watch TV / Play computer / Read story books - Sleep.
I wish I could go back to those days in university and college. I was a busy lady. Every minute of my life was filled with something meaningful. The course was hectic, but still a ride in the park. I do part time job, sign myself up to about every extra-curricular activities - literally doing WHATEVER I LIKE! Boy, that freedom was so refreshing and life was so meaningful then.
I long for that life.
Have finished surgery. It's ok. Nothing terribly exciting. Wouldn't say I learnt that much. Just work. I wake up, go to work, finish work, feeling so very tired, eat, sleep, and work again the next day. And work everyday is absolutely the same. Round, jobs, round again, jobs again.
As I'm on leave now, I went to several shopping malls, but have failed to buy anything. I'm so disappointed. I just didn't find anything that I particularly like. The only things I seemed to be buying again and again are soaks and thighs. I don't know what's behind this obsession.
Save me from this routinely mundane.
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